a couple of hours before the econs paper,
nothing seem to have gone into my fucking head.
im very disapointed in myself.
tell me about scoring As furnise!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

ive great people around me who have been motivating me nonstop,
thank you guys!
and especially the bf,
who constantly remind me of that very day when i got back my results last sem,
he wants me to remember that lousy feeling i felt so i wont walk back that same path.
motivating me with our coming bangkok trip,
just a few days and youre done with dip he said.
all have faith in me,
but i dont have faith in myself!
im feeling lousy.

i miss the late night study sessions we use to have,
motivating each other,
teaching each other,
and without fail.. supper together to end our night.
it was the only time i studied well,
however it still seem useless for me.
cause i ended up flunking last sem,
but i really treasure those times we once had.
it was nice, sweet and memorable.
i love you guys.

now im stuck at home all alone,
suffering all by myself,
its torturing!
please tell me that tomorrows saturday.
lie to me,
it makes me happy!
okay sighhh,
im depressed,
im going to cry!

furnise @ 10:54 PM

woooooo,
seven LONG days before the final examination,
and two SHORT weeks to BANGKOK!
so i should look forward to BANGKOK right:)
i cant wait,
i can sense that its coming!!!
okay, im insane, ignore me.

i bought elmo,
stef bought elmer.
and both of us are so busy with it.
hahahhahahaa,
its distracting us,
we cant study.
right elmers owner?
heeheehee.

and guess what?
im so into pasar malam nowadays.
i find it so so cool!
they have all shit there,
best of all at shit prices.
woooohooooo!
pasar malam pasar malam pasar malam..!
and im sure stef would agree.
hahahaha.

okay, its time to hit the books.
i pray for no sup paper,
cause i had more than enough of them.
good luck to me,
good day to all.

(( :

furnise @ 11:31 AM

im so so fucking pissed now.
such a bad cab experience i just had.
long journey,
fucked up driver,
lousy driving!

the fucking driver was so unreasonable!!!

*&^$##^&&^%$#@!@!!#$%^&**((*&&^%$$#..!!!

okay, this was what happened..

from tampines,
the bf, kenneth and i shared a cab home.
3 places that is,
the driver agreed.
okay, so after kenneth alighted(the bf alighted before kenneth btw),
i called my mom,
she was at bishan mrt,
so i thought i could pick her up since its on the way,
i fucking asked that mother fucker driver THREE fucking times if he could go bishan before heading to my place!
he fucking ignored me,
and finally replied after the third time in some fucked up manner, UP TO YOU.
i couldnt stand his bloody fucking attitude,
so of course i told him OKAY,
then go bishan mrt first.
bloody fucker,
after he heard that he drove like some kid who doesnt have a license!
he deliberately jerk the vehicle so tremendously,
use wrong gear,
tailgate the vehicle in front,
i fucking almost throw up.
okay fine!
its not over,
when he reached bishan mrt i told him my mom is standing in front,
he fucking refuse to move,
he just immediately stopped where he was,
so i repeated my mom is in front.
he then recklessly move up,
jerk, move, stop, jerk!
fuck, he doesnt know whats driving!
and after that drove like some fucker all the way till my home.
he was really testing me,
i do not have very good tolerance over such people.
so i threw him the exact amount stated on the meter,
and i slammed the fucking door real loud!
im so sure hes as pissed with me now.
but who cares?
he doesnt deserve good treatment anyway.

what disppoint me most is my mom!
she bloody hell thank him somemore,
so angry can!
and still say i got bad attitude after that.
i was like,
hey! do you know how he treated me?
did you know how badly he drove?
and try to make things so difficult for me!

i may not have very good temper.
but doesnt mean when i quarrel with someone,
its definitely my fault.
some people are really overboard sometimes.
and i really hate it when im not being treated well.
there isnt such a thing call give and take.

with such a fucking lousy mood,
i still have to prepare for tomorrows presentation!

furnise,
cool it.
be nice..
remember you must change to be good tempered.

im trying..
im really trying..

furnise @ 11:55 PM

happy birthday to you stefie!
mind you, you are no longer 18,
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaa!!
but no matter how old you are,
i'll still love you. :D

furnise @ 12:21 AM

furnise furnise,
from tomorrow onwards no more dinner for you alright.
you must lose weight,
you must not be like.. :)
big tummies, flabby arms, huge thighs are really major turn offs.
you must be tall slim and sexy.
resist all the delicious yummy food,
just focus on losing weight,
and you would see results soon after.
you can do it,
yes you must do it!

happy birthday catherine~
and..
hello 18 year old stef for the last time(:

furnise @ 10:10 PM

some people just love taking things for granted,
thinking that all things would just fall in place for them.
they ought to be taught a lesson,
or they would never learn.

may god bless them.

CZ CZ, i realised how true it is now.
im going to agree with you 101%,
if i had another chance.
but i just hope the hatred wouldnt turn out the same.

i really do not know how to face you,
you are making me hate you so much.
everybody knows their limits,
you dont.
i feel extremely sad for you,
hoping that you would change was so foolish of us.
you are just who you are,
and you would never change.
you think the world owes you,
but hey wake up your bloody idea eh?
slap your fucking face and tell me youre not dreaming.
having to tolerate your nonsense has not been easy,
especially from someone like me who has such bad temper.
however, i did and have been,
yet you dont seem the least appreciative.
good for you.
anyway this is coming to and end soon,
good luck.

furnise @ 7:19 PM

just got back from school, or rather j8.
and ive got this sudden urge to blog,
must be because of caroline's nonsense.

maybe i should dedicate this post especially to her.

caroline caroline,
the first day i saw you,
i knew you were someone unique,
someone special,
someone nice and caring.
now that i got to know you better,
its all proven right.
i can feel this very special bond between us,
which i feel with no others.
and my love for you would never die.

singing: how do i live without you..

okay, fuck shit crap.
all of the above are fake!
wahahahahahahahaaaaahahahahahaha;D

okay la, im not gonna be mean,
caroline isnt that bad afterall,
just that she often order us around,
stamps her feet and insists things her way,
pinches me when she disagree with what i say,
shouts at us in public,
get angry over the slightest issue..

right stef?

haha,
i realised i shouldnt go any further.
(:


such a sweetie, aint she?
now i know why people often say photos are deceiving.

thats our OH CAROL! :D

love her so so much!

exams are in two weeks time,
but guess what?
BANGKOK's in three weeks time.
heeheehee,
thats my motivation to study hard for the upcoming exam.
i cant wait, cant wait, cant wait!
furnise you can do it, you must not be like... :P

time for a good afternoon nap before having a good laugh at 8 on channel U.

see you guys!

furnise @ 3:05 PM

happy birthday to beloved denise!(:

im such a GOOD FRIEND):
i forgot todays the 14th!!
arghhhhhh.
how could i..!!?!?!?!
the birthday girl even had to call and remind me.
how sad can things get.

this was how the conversation went:

denise: hey GOOD FRIEND, where are you, what are you doing!
me: at hougang, why.
denise: im so so angry with you!!
me: why? (i didnt get the hint)
denise: you ask yourself why la! damn angry with you la! (and i still didnt get the hint)
me: (suddenly it struck me, shit, its the 14th!) then, calmly i replied, ohhh, your birthday!! sorry, i lost track of the dates not that i didnt remember!
denise: wah lau, i saw your friend stefanie at cine, then i realise eh, my GOOD FRIEND didnt messgae me this year. (look at what have you done stef!)
me: sorry!!

and she went on with her grandmother story..
guess she has forgiven me.
hee.

i love you denise lim pei cheng!
im sorry)):

furnise @ 11:08 PM

hmm..
it got me wondering,
why am i actually still blogging till now.

perhaps it helps me kill time,
perhaps it allow me to rant when i need to and makes me feel better.
perhaps, perhaps, perhaps..

different people blog for different reasons,
many to share their stuff with friends,
which is perfectly fine.
some talk about their problems,
which is alright as well.
blahh blahh blahh..
HOWEVER,
there are a handful whom use their blog as some sort of advertisment.
erm, what i meant is to show off.
as in purely for showing off,
god bless them!
and i dont wish to comment any further,
afterall its their blog.
i would probably stop reading and that is it.
(:

many a time,
i would wonder,
how much am i appreciated,
and how much do i appreciated others as well.
i guess all of us take things for granted,
knowing that its/they are always there.
be it parents, bf, friends, or whatsoever.
i sometimes quite hope to be more appreciated though,
just like how i would learn to be more appreciative.
shall see.

they say..
sometimes it really doesnt paid to be nice,
now i understand why.
in short,
i fear driving now,
and i very much hope to be driven.
two weeks,
till then i would be keeping my fingers crossed.
bless me, please bless me.

this post is rather lengthy and random i thought,
just feel like it, hee.
boring imec is in a couple of hours time,
may god bless all of us.

goodnight to all!

furnise @ 11:56 PM

thank you for the so-damn-bloody-shiok massage dear.

its just too perfect,

like you.

i love you!

(:

furnise @ 11:54 PM

all the bad are falling on me,
and the good seems to never come.

the bf told me that life is like a bell curve,
however now that ive fallen right to the bottom,
which i feel it's the max,
it doesnt seem that im rising to the peak anytime soon.

sometimes i wonder,
is this world fair or unfair?
GOD is fair,
that is what people often say though.

i really need a break,
i cant take it anymore.
nothing around me seem to be pleasing me,
nothing seems to be going my way either.

having to smile eveyday is the toughest thing to do now.

with the worst mood ever,
i would still like to wish you a very happy 24th birthday kelvin,
though you wont be reading this,
its still the thoughts that count.

good day to all.

furnise @ 11:07 AM

yesterday was a special day:)

it was mr.moomootanruiwen's 19th birthday
AND..
our 31st month!

(ilookdamnbadherebutthisistheonlypicwetooktogether,howpathetic)

despite the special occasion, we did nothing special. haa!
just went vivocitying, again.

had dinner at sushi teh;


and this was after:


dearest boyfriend,
though you love quarrelling with me, i still wanna thank you for the past 31 rocky yet stable months. thank you for all the nice sweet memories but fuck you for all the bad freaky memories. haha! all in all, just know i love you so so much, just for who you are.
much love,
girlfriend

furnise @ 8:03 PM

daryl and i planned a so called surprise party for our dearest mrtanruiwen,
and back on fri night was the mini celebration at sentosa.
however, the supposedly surprise party wasnt exactly a good one because:
1) it was only settled on the night before, everything was too rush
2) mrtanruiwen loves to spoil surprises people plan for him, like always.
(forced everything out of me!)

however, the small group of us still had our fun.
i shall let the pictures do the talking!
(:

furnise @ 7:27 PM

school has been a real bitch.
im starting to hate it,
no more motivation,
no more determination.
why, why.
waking up early to be punctual for lectures seem to be a chore now.
im dreading it.
one more month to freedom,
but fuck i have just forgotten about UOL.
tell me about geting As,
oh please..
i must be dreaming.
there goes my cruise!

the bf's birthday is in a weeks time,
six days to be exact.
im feeling lousy cause i have not plan anything.
arghhhhh.
such a failure gf, i am.
):
SIX DAYS..

ooo,
ive just changed my skin btw.
nicenice?
i know it is.
actually not.
WHATEVER!
im just being lame.

goodnight!

lovelove((:

furnise @ 11:16 PM